coming to terms with fact

this is just a sad blog. i only really write when i'm perplexed, angry or sad about something. a fiery emotion.

so what is it this time?

it's the 24th. dad died five months ago on the 22nd.

and i forgot to remember the 22nd.

it hurts my heart, how quickly i can forget.

though perhaps in other ways i did not forget entirely. this entire week i've felt this incredibly need to get out in nature and backpack my little heart out. i didn't really think as to why i needed it so badly this week.

so on the 23rd, i busted out 23 miles through johnson's pass and it felt incredible.

i wanted to do more, but circumstances didn't let that happen. damn you circumstances.

dear dad, i love you and i'm sorry i forgot.

five months and two days.