lessons

we're children all our lives.

not in age, milestones left to reach, or our obsessive need to eat, poo, sleep, and cry.

god, every day is a fucking learning experience.

your ego gets away from you, and you think you've learned enough from life to go through the rest of it with minimal missteps.

you trust.

you get comfortable.

and you fall back into that young naiveté.

and you make mistakes. and you become obsessed by them because you feel as if you should have known better.

you get sucked into the mistakes of others and your pride wants them to admit their wrongs.

not just to accept your own.

so you accomplish a fail.

and my god, does it seem as if failure surrounds you and the missteps multiply. and all you can hope for is that there is truth behind forgive and forget.

not just for that other person toward you.

but you toward that other person.

and most importantly, you toward yourself.

i know that at the end of the day, i am hardest on myself. i become obsessive about my own mistakes.


but i have to remember.

life was once worse than this silly recent mistake.

and they can be worse still.

so buck up kiddo.

it's not a big deal.

take a trembling step forward to forgiving yourself for falling into the trap of feeling secure.

be ever vigilant.

and go forth and do good.