self-fulfilling

i'm freaking out.

i have no reason to, but i am.

for the last three days, i've tried to call my brother and he hasn't called back. i know he's fine, but there's this tightening in my chest that is scared that something is all wrong.

i can't live my life thinking that the people i love the most will leave one night and never come back. it happened to dad, it won't necessarily happen again.

but i'm scared.