self-direction

i never knew growing up could be so hard.

too many decisions and too many feelings to consider.

but they're not my decisions.
they're not my feelings that i must consider.

stop.

take a breath.

consciously slow the blood flow,
maximize each beat of the heart.

i need to admit that it's time to be selfish.

and that there is nothing wrong with that.

period. exclamation mark. exclamation mark.